Hate and Love

I really miss the hate and love threads. All I want is to make a tiny little comment that someone will take off topic leading to hilarious posting. Making a thread for it seems like I'll want to talk about it. I just like complaining and it disappoints me when a great outlet for complaining is taken away. :(

I have a functional spec I should be doing. This is my break. I'll give myself the time it takes to eat some dinner as the rest of my break and then I'll get back into it. I couldn't have just chose philosophy could I? No, had to get a job out of my degree in the end, didn't I?

We went to karaoke last night for Stacy's birthday. Happy Birthday Stacy, even though you probably don't read this. It was immense. Highlights included Total Eclipse of the Heart, Not the Circle of Life and A Thousand Miles. Good times. I can't wait for dinner on Wednesday or Thursday. And for this functional spec to be over so I can stop hating on college so much.

Music

I love recording music. Despite the fact that I'm not very good and can't record to a click track and sound horrible when I sing, it's actually the most fun ever. I just need a band name. Just because I don't say every little name that pops into my head, doesn't mean that I'm not thinking of names! Yeah!

*sick noise*

I can't wait for this exam to be over. I just want to sleep. :(

I wish I could just be happy and not have shit dragging me down as soon as I get to a state where I am content most of the time. I hate you sometimes, life.

I really shouldn't joke but...

Me: She must be knackered after shaking so much for the last 20 minutes.
Richie: To be fair, I bet she couldn't do it if she wasn't having a seizure.

Amazing!

So yeah. My Gran had a seizure today. I'm going to make jokes about it because that's what I do. It's probably going to make you feel uncomfortable. But that's ok. I'll stop in a few days.
One of the ambulance guys looked like Ricky Gervais. I was going to say it but then realised that if there probably couldn't have been a worse time to bring that up.

Just one exam left. Yuss! My leg got super sore for some reason. I'd really like to just go to bed. Sigh.

Studying...

...makes me want to think about anything but study. Here's what I was thinking about:

I've decided I want to do something worthwhile with my life outside of college. I'm thinking along the lines of getting my fitness level up. It's a bit ridiculous how unhealthy I am. And my diet is just awful. So the plan is to sort out my diet and be more active. I'm thinking along the lines of jogging, swimming and if I join a gym, that, otherwise I'll come up with some alternative. Also I want to document everything to see how long it takes and all that jazz. Writing a blog about it makes it a little more real.

Instead of studying I've been watching tutorial on how to give massages. I think maybe I'll take classes or something. Just watching the videos is super relaxing.

I have a databases exam tomorrow. Such a boring subject. What were you thinking, 18 year old Richie? Tardbag!

And here's some bullet points about the last few days:

24th
The Quays Restaurant
Avatar again

23rd
Moshspace Anniversary show
Strange Bouncers
Dorans
not Citibar
That other place whose name escapes me
Girl Fight
Charlies

22nd
Sin é
Porterhouse

Trousers

My exam went well. Thanks to everyone who made it possible.

When I got into my gran's last night, my jeans were soaked. I thought I had a few pairs there but evidently, I did not. As a result I wore Amy's size 6 trousers. Why they're there, I do not know. They're very white and very tight and very see through.
This morning I got up and my jeans were still wet so I decided I'd suit up because that's all that was there. So I wore a suit to my exam. Man I love wearing suits. No regrets!

My Granddad lost his wallet. If you find it, please contact me. It's easily identifiable from the €800 in it. I think I should start managing their finances.

AI

I'm as boring and insignificant as an Input node travelling to a single hidden node whose weight is set to zero. No matter what my input is, my out put will always be fucking zero!

I got 68% in my CA for artificial intelligence. And after looking quickly at the questions, I know how to properly do 10 out 24. Multiple choice, no negative marking. This should give me around 40 per cent. I'm ok with that. The minimum Ive to get is 20. I'll be fine. It's going to be a breeze. I'm going to look for something interesting about human or machine intelligence that wasn't in the course. Bonus Marks are awesome!

My friends all say...
WE ALL SAY!!!!

I like when I make smart things silly

My first exam went amazingly. The three things that I studied in detail came up. I wrote so much. The exam was called 'Information System Strategy' and one of the questions was 'What external elements would you analyse when making an Information System Strategy?' So I broke it down and asked myself what an information system strategy was. I didn't know.

That can't be good...

My brain is like the sine wave 1/x. As I get closer to zero, I become and more and more chaotic. It's getting to the stage where I can no longer predict where, between one and zero, I am on an x-axis when given a y value.

I feel like an unstable atomic nucleus spontaniously losing energy. Where I was one a proud carbon-14 atom, I have decayed and am now barely a nitrogen-14 atom. I am emitting radiation at an unpredictable rate.

I feel so alone, like a completely independent state of matter different from liquids, solids, plasma or gasses which our pathetic human minds couldn't even begin to understand.

You're Erwin Schrödinger and I'm your faithful feline companion who you have doomed to live in this eternal state of life and death until such time as you see fit to check in on me.

I feel like an insignificant pixel trying to show you a high resolution image, but all I can manage is a single colour from my arsenal of 16 million (156 to the power of 3) possibilities at any given time.

This is why no one likes you

I'm waiting for Edward to come back so I can leave. He's gone to print off notes. He's staying up all night because he left everything till the last minute. Learn from his mistakes! I never do but someone definately should.

It's been ages since I've written a blog. It seems like longer than it actually was. It's probably a good thing since I'd been feeling like super-shit for a few weeks. Luckily though everything has snapped back into contentment. I'm putting it down to a few friends. They're the best friends.

I have an exam tomorrow. I started studying this morning. I'm about half done. I'm going to power nap on the bus home and then study some more. I'm quite enjoying the studying, which I also hate. It feels good to be productive, or something.

Music is going well. Hopefully when my exams are complete, I'll have time to record something properly. I hate you, Amy. Like proper hate!

As you may have guessed, whoever you are, this blog is more about reminding me about what happened in my life, rather than it being of any significant value to you. Although if it is, I'm glad you're getting something out of it.

Somethings I'd like to be reminded of when I look back over this:

LOTR Marathon
I <3 MY BLACK RICHIE WALL
That Indian Resteraunt
08.30
Postits (I bet you're laughing at that, Amy. Tard)
Almost being locked out
"Stop Playing the Game"
Cancelled Bus
ex-Radio City club place
Snow fights
Sleep Overs in the living room
Pizza
Shuffle Shuffle
Young Wolves

!Studying

I just downloaded all of my exam papers for the past few years and all the downloadable notes I could find. I'm not sure how else to put of studying so I'm writing a blog. Hurrah!

The upstairs in my grans house was freezing. I almost dragged a matress downstairs but then I just realised I could drag my bed closer to the radiator. It means I can't open the wardrobes or anything but it's a grand sacrifice.

Someone needs to come play with me this evening. My gran's house is hella boring.

My hands were extremely cold and I needed to pee so I held my hands over the stream of piss and allowed the steam rising from the yellow magic to tickle my fingers warm. It wasn't enough so I took a shower as well.

No regrets!

I wish I could distract myself with being happy, or even content, when other people aren't around. I've literally spent all of the last few days in the company of a group of friends and had a great time. I've been alone (family doesn't count) now for about an hour and already I want to go back to bed and listen to the weakerthans. I want to go to college but I can't afford the bus. :(

Yesterday we did a photo shoot. It was loads of fun. Worth standing out in the cold by Lydia's car for ages. We also pretended to smoke so we'd look cool. We had so many cigarrettes in our ears and mouths and such.

I need to leave this house.

Fuck the incapability of people to deal with situations in a civilised fashion.