I wish I could distract myself with being happy, or even content, when other people aren't around. I've literally spent all of the last few days in the company of a group of friends and had a great time. I've been alone (family doesn't count) now for about an hour and already I want to go back to bed and listen to the weakerthans. I want to go to college but I can't afford the bus. :(

Yesterday we did a photo shoot. It was loads of fun. Worth standing out in the cold by Lydia's car for ages. We also pretended to smoke so we'd look cool. We had so many cigarrettes in our ears and mouths and such.

I need to leave this house.